So for anyone that actually reads my blog, I apologize. I don't blog so everyone can have an update on my life. I blog because at the end of the year, I print my blog into a book to keep as a "scrapbook" or "journal entry" for the year. I make sure to blog on everything we do and somewhat of how I am feeling at that certain point. So if I seem depressed or overly excited it's only because I write exactly how I feel so I can read about it later and years from now to remember. So don't think I'm crazy for being so "open".
So for the last 2 and a half weeks I can honestly say I've been so bored. Extremely busy changing diapers and feeding and trying to entertain Max, but bored out of my mind. I want to go somewhere but the effort that it would take just leaves me at home all day. I went to go pick up Max from my friend Kami's house on Tuesday with the intentions of going somewhere after. I ended up in my driveway with the car still on just sitting there. I texted Jim "where should I go"?. He text back "I'm of no help". So I sat in my car for another 5 minutes and ended up going inside for the rest of the day. It's tough taking care of 2 babies and I can't imagine doing this again when Molly is a year. Well, I WONT be doing it again. It's been kind of a nightmare. Everyone says it will be nice when they are older. We shall see.....haha
Anyway, today I was trying to think about all the things that make me smile. Because I haven't been doing much of that lately.
Molly sleeping. As much as I like to see her cute face, I love when she's asleep. I can re-gain some sanity I still have left.
My cutest little guy ever. This was taken before I sent him off to church with Jim. So handsome.
This Moses basket was a gift from Bobbi for Molly. When Molly is awake and not using it, Max likes to lounge in it. We call it his boat. He makes me laugh.
My morning beverage. Such happiness should be restricted. It's the only thing that gets me through my day. There is nothing better than waking up and hearing that pop can crack open. What would I do without it?
My friend Stacey. She calls and checks in with me almost every day to see how I am doing. Being a Mom of 2, she knows what I am going through with 2 little babies. I am at home all day talking to babies so it's nice to have someone that is an adult to talk to. It's nice to have a good friend. Hopefully I can learn from her and return the favor.
The church. I have made so many friends in my ward and since I am in Young Women's I have a lot of little friends too. The girls are so awesome and "good" girls. They are all just great. All the leaders that I work with are so cool too. It makes my calling so much fun...(and going to church). Knowing the"plan" makes every day worth it for me. When I think of the eternal family it just makes me think of my kids differently. It comforts me to know that by living the gospel and doing what I should be, everything will be ok. Maybe not the way I hoped for and definitely not perfect, but it will be ok.
And LAST, but definitely not least...my super hot husband Jim. He is there for me when I am crying my eyes out or when I am having a freak attack and reassures me that everything will be fine. He never worries about a thing. He puts up with me when I've gone a week without putting make-up on or even getting dressed. He listens to me complain about everything and somehow still loves me. He honors his Priesthood and fulfills his calling and is the best Dad I could ask for. When he walks through the door from working all day, he doesn't complain about changing Molly's diaper or holding her because she's screaming. He just does it all. I married the greatest guy!! And look how hot he is? (even if that was 4 years ago)...haha